>was trying to get john and harry to download it for me all weekend.
>and i met this guy on the weekend, one of johns mates. and he honestly
>really fascinated/intrigued me. not in a sexual way or anything like
>that. but he has these huge issues. like mega issues and hes open about
>it but not. he says he hates going to bed at night coz then he has to
>think, so hed read so much that hed get titred and just fall asleep or
>hell drink himself to sleep. he hates himself, he uses a seriously
>extensive wide range of vocab of words that ive never heard about. hes a
>great writer, hes currently writitng a book now about his life or
>something like that. hes been to costa rica to build houses (like aid
>work) and hes 21... i duno its really hard to explain.. but none of
>these issues are actually him- its more like society and capitalism but
>its a hige issue for him. hes reallyup himself to jon and was saying he
>was smarter than all his friends but then he has trouble fitting in, he
>has to change the person he is and wont admit that to them.. ok i know
>im going on heaps about this.. but i was asking him (we were quite you
>know what at this stage so evertyinhg was honest and open as it is) and
>i was basically pin pointing out his issues and trying to come up with
>these conclusions and johns like YES that is so it! and yeah.. anyways i
>know you probs dont care but i seriously feel like i need to help this
>boy.
>ok well 3 days of actual school left! yay! hey i find out about this
>schoalrship this week. really quite anxious to know so i can start
>amking plans for when ileave etc... but i was thinking.. i read the
>chicken soup for travellers guide adn there was thing about this son who
>went travelling alone but decided to come back early because he said
>moments are great unless you have osmeone to share it with as you have
>said previously... soooooo i really want to go to noumean but also not
>that bad enough in this moment in time as i dont know what im doing with
>my life right now..
